This morning I felt queasy/metallic in my mouth and stomach and delicate. Still bothered a bit by the yucky tummy leftover from my IBS issues a couple of days ago, and also still really bothered by the crazy gassiness! I felt a little bit gaggy on nothing at all. And the whole sensation made me suddenly nervous, because if it's because I'm pregnant then there's MUCH more to come... :/ I have had this feeling so many times before, lol!
I needed to wee in the night despite weeing at 1am, though I decided to save it for peeing on a stick, so I didn't go (uncomfortable!). I know it's too early, but I had set myself a cut-off of 7DPO to start testing if I was LONGING so much to take a pregnancy test after all this time, so I decided to test anyway with a 10mIU early stick. The test was negative, no matter how I squinted and angled, of course, lol! ;) Not surprising, so I was not disappointed. It was SO MUCH FUN to take a pregnancy test again! :D
Through the day, I have felt yucky. Bloated and queasy almost the whole day. I ate okay though. I have still continued to have on-and-off cramps and twinges, and I have had pubic bone pain (mostly left side) today as the past couple of days, but quite a bit less than yesterday. I've had some backache that has felt hot and crampy occasionally (like previous days), and some yucky feeling periody cramps low in the front for a short while this afternoon. They have all come and gone, not been sustained. I've mostly tried to keep busy so I can focus on things other than feeling yucky. My energy hasn't been bad today, though I am still feeling tired. Less crushingly exhausted today, I think - better night's sleep maybe? I don't think it was THAT much better to make me feel rested though. I have felt gaggy a few times, mainly when I got a taste of the boys' baked beans at dinner time (Neil and I are having lasagne and garlic bread in a little while, which I have my concerns about, but hope to enjoy successfully anyway!).
New thing today: MAJOR sweet tooth! I had to have Swizzels sweeties (refresher chews and little sweets, and love hearts, drumstick lollies, boiled fruit sweets, etc.). I felt like that a couple of days ago, a little bit, so I threw a bag of them into the usual grocery order that we have delivered, and now they're in the cupboard. I nearly went out of my mind while I had to wait for Arthur to finish baking the cake he was working on in the kitchen this afternoon, I SO badly had to have some of those sweeties and I didn't want him to see me snuffling them down, lol! In the end I couldn't wait, and he tutted as I ate them and said, "You know those things are addictive, don't you?" ;) I found an old doughnut and ate that on the stairs (sneaking sugar where I can today, hehe!), and scraped the bowl to eat all the leftover icing once Arthur was finished and out of the kitchen!
An hour or so later I developed a really yucky headache, which made me think my period was on its way again (since I sometimes get a HORRIBLE headache the day before it shows), but then I remembered the crazy amount of sugar I'd recently consumed, and felt kind of silly! It didn't last more than an hour as well, which isn't like my pre-period ones. Those always last minimum 8 hours and are debilitating eventually.
Another new thing today: I found it a bit sore to breastfeed, both Elijah and Lydia, at various different times from lunchtime onwards (okay this morning), so it wasn't some weird latch issue as it was both of them. I had to cut a nursing session short twice this afternoon because it became too sore. I don't think that tends to happen to me before a period, and it doesn't always happen when I'm pregnant (I don't *think* - I can't really remember every time), but it definitely has happened sometimes when pregnant, this early.
I'm still irritable and have a short fuse, but I am handling it a bit better today, or else maybe it's just not quite so bad today? I've apologised a few times for outbursts towards a child that just wasn't fair, for example. Ugh!
Well, I am taking each day as it comes. I know that I am still unlikely to sustain this pregnancy (I totally see it as one - I am not even 0.001% doubtful that I'm pregnant. I have such clear and obvious symptoms, and have been there and done that so many times, that I'm SURE as sure. The question is, can it stick? And if not, how long will it last? Literally any day, my temp could drop and I could start to bleed later that day. That's how it has happened so many times before, no matter how obvious my pregnancy symptoms up to that point. I'm expecting that to happen, but I don't know when. I know I said yesterday that I didn't expect my temp to rise in the morning, and it did more than just rise! ;) But even so, I'm saying again that I don't expect it to stay up there tomorrow. I will be 8DPO, after a 4 day luteal phase last cycle, which is such a jump for me that it's sure to be because I've conceived. If my temp drops and I get my period, then it gives me a 7 day luteal phase this cycle, which is better. Not enough, still, but better. If my temp hangs about somewhat high then I will test again, just for the fun of it! :) As each day goes by now, I have a better chance at seeing a faint line before it's all over. That sounds so pessimistic of me! I don't feel sad about it, I just feel like I'm being realistic about it. I'm also suddenly slightly anxious about going through the difficult parts of pregnancy again, now that the symptoms I'm having are making that more real! But OH how worth it, it would be!
I will update my chart in the morning again, and have chance to update my blog later in the day/evening. Thanks for reading and commenting! :)